As usual, I was getting ready for bed around 11pm on Tuesday night in Auckland. However, I found myself experiencing pain in my heart, as if it was being squeezed and I found my breathing shallowly. I wasn’t able to sleep, my mind turning to Bhante, I laid in bed chanting Green Tara mantra for quite some time. At 1am in the night it occurred to me that Bhante may have died, which was swiftly confirmed when I saw the sad news posted on Facebook.